floops_amnos | "Don't worry, be happy" ain't gonna cut it for me...

You know the old cliched saying "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade"? I feel like I've been handed millions of lemons and not enough sugar....so sour...XP

I was reading lola33's rant last night and kinda sparked a rant in me too...although I find mine more depressing than angry... I don't know...kind of feel out of place lately. I've gone on hiatus on xanga because none of my friends ever update or respond back. It's like I'm talking to a wall. Only a select few ever comment...but then again, it's not like I comment on their blogs anyways...ohwell...ya get what you give I suppose. And do I really call them "my friends"? Seems like they've stopped treating me like one. I saw them post pics up of a birthday party they held over the weekend. WTF. Why wasn't I there? Because I wasn't invited. Ok, so I sound like I'm bitching because I wasn't invited but how does it feel when your so-called friends had a blast while you're left out? And this wasn't the first time either. But somehow, I know it's partly my fault for losing touch....ahhh whatever...it's too complicated...making my brain hurt... At least I still have 2 people I can confide in. But it sucks that both of them are not within my immediate reach. One in HK and one in the U.S... I think if I were to watch Toy Story right now I'd probably break down and cry because of that song "You've got a friend in me"...that's just not happening for me right now...

Blech. Aside from that, I also have all this school crap to do. The next 2 weeks will not be fun. It's not helping that I'm falling asleep everywhere I go! Something is wrong with me XP. Mentally exhausted? I think so. I'm so tired of everything. I just feel like doing brainless stuff. I need a vacation.

I have all these stuff that I know I'm supposed to get cracking on and they are staring me in the face as I type but I lack total motivation to do so. This is worse than procrastination! I think I'm gonna fail my cmns course. And contrary to what you, rettata might think (if you are reading this), d/l and videos have not been dominating my time. I'm actually behind in my videos XP. Where has all my time gone??

Anyways...maybe I should just end this here and actually get to work. What a sad update.