"Don't worry, be happy" ain't gonna cut it for me...

[floops_amnos]

You know the old cliched saying "when life gives you lemons, make lemonade"? I feel like I've been handed millions of lemons and not enough sugar....so sour...XP

I was reading lola33's  rant last night and kinda sparked a rant in me too...although I find mine more depressing than angry... I don't know...kind of feel out of place lately. I've gone on hiatus on xanga because none of my friends ever update or respond back. It's like I'm talking to a wall. Only a select few ever comment...but then again, it's not like I comment on their blogs anyways...ohwell...ya get what you give I suppose. And do I really call them "my friends"? Seems like they've stopped treating me like one. I saw them post pics up of a birthday party they held over the weekend. WTF. Why wasn't I there? Because I wasn't invited. Ok, so I sound like I'm bitching because I wasn't invited but how does it feel when your so-called friends had a blast while you're left out? And this wasn't the first time either. But somehow, I know it's partly my fault for losing touch....ahhh whatever...it's too complicated...making my brain hurt... At least I still have 2 people I can confide in. But it sucks that both of them are not within my immediate reach. One in HK and one in the U.S... I think if I were to watch Toy Story right now I'd probably break down and cry because of that song "You've got a friend in me"...that's just not happening for me right now...

Blech. Aside from that, I also have all this school crap to do. The next 2 weeks will not be fun. It's not helping that I'm falling asleep everywhere I go! Something is wrong with me XP. Mentally exhausted? I think so. I'm so tired of everything. I just feel like doing brainless stuff. I need a vacation.

I have all these stuff that I know I'm supposed to get cracking on and they are staring me in the face as I type but I lack total motivation to do so. This is worse than procrastination! I think I'm gonna fail my cmns course. And contrary to what you, rettata  might think (if you are reading this), d/l and videos have not been dominating my time. I'm actually behind in my videos XP. Where has all my time gone??

Anyways...maybe I should just end this here and actually get to work. What a sad update.

Comments

[lola33.livejournal.com]

aah, Flo~ you kinda put it into words better than I did. ! At least you still have two friends, even if they are far away. I gave up on people a long time ago though... only got one, and she tends to put the whole stupid, exclusive, Tsuba-Namae Blog Crew in front of me, unless I'm coming to visit where she will actually give me her time as I drive her around the lower mainland to go shopping or to karaoke. x.x;; Life sucks major, royal, big, fat arse.

And whoever that rettata person is... reminds me of my mom. "You spend too much time on the computer. You download too much." etc. etc. I sit here, and listen to music, and hope that I don't have to do anything because I can't do anything. I need a vacation too... but ... it's like I just need to run away and be by myself away from ... everything. x.x; Though... some place like Hawaii or Japan would definately be a good place for that. XD Not that I'll ever get there... but oh well.

But I got a variation of that lemon bit that might make you laugh. "When life hands you lemons... put 'em in your bra! It couldn't hurt." <--- that was in a 'get well soon' card. XD

[floops_amnos]

Hahaha..that lemon bit...XD But it was in a get well card? o_O;;

Oh, rettata is actually my sister, so in a way she is sort of like my mom (but in a good way? bad way? LOL). And she's also one of the ppl I confide to...but the JE-d/l issue kinda gets in the way XP

Ahh...the Tsuba-namae blog crew *nods in understanding* Well at least she'll be willing to give you the time of day when you need it. Didn't I read somewhere that you might be moving in with her? Maybe being closer to civilization...or maybe just Richmond will make things better XD It's no vacation but better than nothing.